It is VERY early and yet I am already up and have decided that while I only have a few minutes until I must jump into the shower and start this busy day I just had to tell you the GOOD news that my husband and I heard yesterday at the oncologists....
As I am sure you recall, I DID NOT WANT to go...I was soo weary of it all. I felt like I was on not only such an overload of information, but just have WAY too much in general going on to do much more. And yet, my doc pretty much insisted, and my husband encouraged me (OK, he had to almost pull me by my hair, haha) and we kept the appointment. How VERY GLAD I am that we did. First of all, I saw both the Physicans Assistant and the actual doc. They were both women and I LOVED them both. My hubby had looked the doc up on-line (orginally just for directions) and found all kinds of GOOD stuff about her. How well thought of and sought after she was to name a few. Anyway, for the first time I talked at GREAT length with people who really know all about what is going on with me....I wish this had been my first stop or even my first conversation. What stress this would have prevented. They were soo patient with me as they answered my questions (sometimes over and over just in different ways, haha) and I could just tell how they cared. Well, here is the bottom line....What I actually have is a PRE cancer condition. Did you hear that word? PRE cancer. She has rated it a stage 0...BECAUSE it is a PRE cancer...After asking why everyone is SAYING cancer then, they explained that any cell growth that is abnormal is technically a cancer. Soo, this is a CANCER, but it is classified in a PRE cancer category. She drew me pictures and thorougly explained this. At this point I don't have an ACTUAL cancer. However, the pre-cancer situation that I have going on IS quite EXTENSIVE...It has a 30% chance of developing into a full blown cancer and with my breast cancer history in my family, she too would recommend a double mastectomy. She went so far as to say since my breast cancer history actually goes back 3 generations (my mother, my grandmother, and my great grandmother) that she would have a double mastectomy if it were her even without the pre-cancer situation...She told me by doing this I will eliminate "almost" ANY chance of EVER developing this disease. She wants to test myself for the gene that would show if we do indeed carry this in our family. This would help my daughter and granddaughters (sisters and nieces too) know if they too were at risk, and how to watch themselves more closely. I am praying about this as it was a new thought for me and I want to make the right choice. When I asked her how then the surgeon mentioned MAYBE finding something invasive from a PRE CANCER situation she told me what he meant by that is that there is ALWAYS a chance that when they biopsy the whole breast that there is a remote chance they might find a tiny piece of an actual cancer somewhere that was soo small it did not even show up in mamograms or ultra sounds. Which she said that even if they did (which she believes WON'T HAPPEN) it would be soo small it too would probably only be rated a 0 or a 1 in which case there would still be nothing recommended besides surgery. She also said this pre-cancer situation I have going on has probably been happening for over 10 years!! It just takes sometimes that long for it to show up on a mamogram...So, she expects for me to have the surgery, see her two weeks later where she will go over all the reports (which she expects to be negative) and she will dismiss me as there will be no need for her services at that point. I can just follow up with my reg. doc. She also said I tested negative for the medication or harmones they sometimes give to women after treatment as well, so I won't be doing that either. SOOOO how wonderful is all this??? I have felt such a load lifted off of me....Now of course I still have a double mastectomy coming up in a week. I have MANY feelings about that. But I am trusting my Lord and my family, friends and all of you to pull me through. I don't do things like this well I am not going to lie. But KNOWING what I am actually facing is so much better. I am seeing my reg. doc this morning to discuss all of my appointments this morning, and I must have my ears flushed out. Another LONG story which I won't bore you with. But I would appreciate your prayers this morning, as I HATE HATE HATE doing this...I must do it 3 or 4 times a year...SIGH...
Then, on another wonderful note, we DID travel down to hear my son teach last night. What an incredible blessing that was. How he has matured in his teaching abilities. I felt the Holy Spirit was really working in him last night, and soo many were blessed. After the service a few dear people gathered around and prayed for me. What another tremendous blessing.
God is soo good to me. How I love Him. His peace has surrounded me through most of this journey and how grateful I am could never be expressed.
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I have 2 other appointments after this early one this morning so I am afraid I won't get around to visiting some of you like I usually do. Know I am thinking of all of you and look forward to catching up when I can... = )
Thursday, May 27, 2010
Tuesday, May 25, 2010
BE ANXIOUS FOR NOTHING
Tonight I am feeling a little down. Not defeated, nor depressed, nor hopeless, nor sorry for myself. Just a little down. I am already weary of this journey, and I have barely begun...
Yesterday I went to see the Cardiologist...It went OK I guess...I actually felt pretty calm (for me) and my blood pressure while a little elevated was still normal....THANK YOU LORD...But after I described my palpitations etc., it seemed as if little to nothing was changed. She ordered a couple of tests. One I did today, and the other I am not going to do....I am not going to bore you with all of the details as to why I am choosing not to do this test....I am just NOT going to do it....I think my doc (or he hasn't said anything YET) is going to let this fly....we will see. And then today I went to the surgeon. It started with my blood pressure going through the roof unfornately. SIGH... He had both good and bad things to say I guess is the only way to describe it....He started by saying my kind of cancer is totally curable. Definitely good news. Then he went on to say that the cancer is extensive....YES....that was the word he used EXTENSIVE....Not exactly the way my doc explained it to me. I am not sure how "early stages" could be EXTENSIVE....However, he went on to say that it is NON INVASIVE...which of course is very good news....However (why must there ALWAYS be however) he also said that while they did MANY biopsy's ALL of which showed NON INVASIVE cancer, that there is still a slim chance that MAYBE there COULD BE some that isn't....Now, he REALLY doubts this, but he has to present it, as it "could" be...Then he went on to say a mastectomy is necessary....He also basically told me that a double mastectomy is what he thinks should be done...Not because he thinks there is any cancer in the other one, but because he feels there is a GOOD chance that there could eventually be. The old better safe now, than sorry later...He told me of course it was totally my decision and whichever one I chose (single or double) he would honor my choice. Well it didn't take long for my husband, myself and my sister Diane to quickly decide a double would be what I went for. I have scheduled it for Friday, June 4th. IF I do a double mastectomy and IF there is no sign of invasive cancer after the mastectomy’s, and IF there is no sign of cancer in my lymph nodes, THEN that will be the end of it....NO chemo, and NO radiation. I will have a 97% chance of the cancer NEVER returning...Pretty good odds I am thinking. If there is some invasive cancer, or lymph nodes, then chemo will happen he says....He told me flat out not to worry about it as he felt as certain as he could that it would not be the case....And yet, my mind keeps wanting to travel down that road...WHAT IF?? I have already fallen into the small percentage of women who have had a biopsy that ended the way mine did. Why not this? But it also comes back to the same thing I have told myself from the very beginning. I either believe that the Lord holds my life in His hands ~ or I don't. I either believe He will walk me through this from beginning to end NO MATTER what the outcome might be ~ or I don't. And in the end, I chose to believe He will see me through. It may not go exactly as I would like it to. It may not have the outcome I desire. But He WILL NEVER leave me or forsake me. His Word stands true and never falters. He LOVES me, He will care for me, and He is Lord...Tomorrow I see the oncologist...I DON'T WANT TO GO....I want to wait till after the surgery and see if an oncologist is even necessary....I don't want to hear any more bad news. I don't want to know more details. I want to NOT think about all of this for awhile. But my doc encouraged me to go. To listen to all that is said and be as informed as I can be. Soo, I will trudge off. I won't lie...I am NOT a happy camper...I am feeling a little weary already.
Meanwhile, I decided to focus tonight on some of the blessings I can see. Our new home is nearing the end of escrow already. It should close June 3. The day BEFORE my surgery which means I will be able to sign all the final papers and go on the walk through...Praise God for this... I feel truly blessed and I am VERY EXCITED over it all. I am thankful that I have managed to pick out tile, carpet, paint, appliances, and a BEAUTIFUL new bedding and quilt etc., for our room. I am thankful it will all be going in while I recover. I am thankful that I will have at least 3 weeks and maybe 4 before we actually move following the surgery. Should almost be back good as new. I am thankful for MANY helping hands to get all of this done. I am especially thankful to my two wonderful sisters Diane and Danae who have been here for me and supported me and laughed with me and cried with me. I am thankful as always for my wonderful husband that I just don't know what I'd ever do without. I am thankful for all of my friends and all of you who mean more to me than I could ever explain. I am thankful that my Melly is coming to be with me. I am not sure when but I pray we have at least a couple of days BEFORE the surgery to enjoy. And I am thankful that my son James is to teach tomorrow night (Wed.) at the mid-week service at his church. I will go if I can work it out with all of my appointments. But if not, then I am thankful I can catch it LIVE on-line. If any of you would like to hear him go to their website at 7:00 pm http://maranathachapel.org/ and tune into their live webcast. So, as you can see as always there is much to be thankful for. And now my spirits have calmed and I am again feeling His peace. His Word never comes back void...
Phl 4:6,7 & 8 Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God; and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus. Finally, brethren, whatever things are true, whatever things are noble, whatever things are just, whatever things are pure, whatever things are lovely, whatever things are of good report, if there is any virtue and if there is anything praiseworthy--meditate on these things.
Yesterday I went to see the Cardiologist...It went OK I guess...I actually felt pretty calm (for me) and my blood pressure while a little elevated was still normal....THANK YOU LORD...But after I described my palpitations etc., it seemed as if little to nothing was changed. She ordered a couple of tests. One I did today, and the other I am not going to do....I am not going to bore you with all of the details as to why I am choosing not to do this test....I am just NOT going to do it....I think my doc (or he hasn't said anything YET) is going to let this fly....we will see. And then today I went to the surgeon. It started with my blood pressure going through the roof unfornately. SIGH... He had both good and bad things to say I guess is the only way to describe it....He started by saying my kind of cancer is totally curable. Definitely good news. Then he went on to say that the cancer is extensive....YES....that was the word he used EXTENSIVE....Not exactly the way my doc explained it to me. I am not sure how "early stages" could be EXTENSIVE....However, he went on to say that it is NON INVASIVE...which of course is very good news....However (why must there ALWAYS be however) he also said that while they did MANY biopsy's ALL of which showed NON INVASIVE cancer, that there is still a slim chance that MAYBE there COULD BE some that isn't....Now, he REALLY doubts this, but he has to present it, as it "could" be...Then he went on to say a mastectomy is necessary....He also basically told me that a double mastectomy is what he thinks should be done...Not because he thinks there is any cancer in the other one, but because he feels there is a GOOD chance that there could eventually be. The old better safe now, than sorry later...He told me of course it was totally my decision and whichever one I chose (single or double) he would honor my choice. Well it didn't take long for my husband, myself and my sister Diane to quickly decide a double would be what I went for. I have scheduled it for Friday, June 4th. IF I do a double mastectomy and IF there is no sign of invasive cancer after the mastectomy’s, and IF there is no sign of cancer in my lymph nodes, THEN that will be the end of it....NO chemo, and NO radiation. I will have a 97% chance of the cancer NEVER returning...Pretty good odds I am thinking. If there is some invasive cancer, or lymph nodes, then chemo will happen he says....He told me flat out not to worry about it as he felt as certain as he could that it would not be the case....And yet, my mind keeps wanting to travel down that road...WHAT IF?? I have already fallen into the small percentage of women who have had a biopsy that ended the way mine did. Why not this? But it also comes back to the same thing I have told myself from the very beginning. I either believe that the Lord holds my life in His hands ~ or I don't. I either believe He will walk me through this from beginning to end NO MATTER what the outcome might be ~ or I don't. And in the end, I chose to believe He will see me through. It may not go exactly as I would like it to. It may not have the outcome I desire. But He WILL NEVER leave me or forsake me. His Word stands true and never falters. He LOVES me, He will care for me, and He is Lord...Tomorrow I see the oncologist...I DON'T WANT TO GO....I want to wait till after the surgery and see if an oncologist is even necessary....I don't want to hear any more bad news. I don't want to know more details. I want to NOT think about all of this for awhile. But my doc encouraged me to go. To listen to all that is said and be as informed as I can be. Soo, I will trudge off. I won't lie...I am NOT a happy camper...I am feeling a little weary already.
Meanwhile, I decided to focus tonight on some of the blessings I can see. Our new home is nearing the end of escrow already. It should close June 3. The day BEFORE my surgery which means I will be able to sign all the final papers and go on the walk through...Praise God for this... I feel truly blessed and I am VERY EXCITED over it all. I am thankful that I have managed to pick out tile, carpet, paint, appliances, and a BEAUTIFUL new bedding and quilt etc., for our room. I am thankful it will all be going in while I recover. I am thankful that I will have at least 3 weeks and maybe 4 before we actually move following the surgery. Should almost be back good as new. I am thankful for MANY helping hands to get all of this done. I am especially thankful to my two wonderful sisters Diane and Danae who have been here for me and supported me and laughed with me and cried with me. I am thankful as always for my wonderful husband that I just don't know what I'd ever do without. I am thankful for all of my friends and all of you who mean more to me than I could ever explain. I am thankful that my Melly is coming to be with me. I am not sure when but I pray we have at least a couple of days BEFORE the surgery to enjoy. And I am thankful that my son James is to teach tomorrow night (Wed.) at the mid-week service at his church. I will go if I can work it out with all of my appointments. But if not, then I am thankful I can catch it LIVE on-line. If any of you would like to hear him go to their website at 7:00 pm http://maranathachapel.org/ and tune into their live webcast. So, as you can see as always there is much to be thankful for. And now my spirits have calmed and I am again feeling His peace. His Word never comes back void...
Phl 4:6,7 & 8 Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God; and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus. Finally, brethren, whatever things are true, whatever things are noble, whatever things are just, whatever things are pure, whatever things are lovely, whatever things are of good report, if there is any virtue and if there is anything praiseworthy--meditate on these things.
Saturday, May 22, 2010
HIS PEACE
I have found my head all over the place these last two days since I heard my doctor say, "Debbie, we have had a positive result in your biopsy, you do have breast cancer." Now of course he had A LOT more to say as he went into detail of just what kind of cancer it is and how VERY fortunate I am that if I had to hear those words that it is indeed this kind of cancer and caught at the earliest possible stage. Obviously, this was NOT what I was hoping to hear, and it NOT what any woman ever wants to hear. However one thing I can tell you for sure I was NOT expecting to feel should I ever hear those words was "peaceful"....and yet, that is just how I feel. Now don't get me wrong. There has been some denial and tears and dread for what lies ahead as well. But by far the most overwhelming of my emotions is peaceful. There is of course absolutely no question in my mind that this is coming ONLY from my Lord. Anyone who knows me well, KNOWS that a calm and peaceful spirit does not exactly describe me. I have suffered from Anxiety my whole life. I came to terms a while ago with that fact and know that He ALWAYS sees me through regardless of where my physical and emotional feelings take me. So the fact that my very spirit is experiencing an unexplainable and overwhelming peace is truly miraculous, and can be coming only from Him. He has drawn soo many scriptures to my heart and mind through these last hours it is truly unbelievable.
Psalm 32:7 You are my hiding place; You shall preserve me from trouble; You shall surround me with songs of deliverance.
Psalm 50:15 Call upon Me in the day of trouble; I will deliver you, and you shall glorify Me."
Psalm 59:16 But I will sing of Your power; Yes, I will sing aloud of Your mercy in the morning; For You have been my defense And refuge in the day of my trouble.
Psalm 17:8 Keep me as the apple of Your eye; Hide me under the shadow of Your wings,
Psalm 63:7 Because You have been my help, Therefore in the shadow of Your wings I will rejoice.
Psalm 56:4 In God I will praise His word, In God I have put my trust; I will not fear. What can flesh do to me?
Isa 41:13 For I, the LORD your God, will hold your right hand, Saying to you, 'Fear not, I will help you.'
There are MANY MANY more, but I will stop here. There IS power in His Word. There IS hope for all who believe and He WILL see me through all this of this I have no doubt. I have many busy days ahead full of doctor appointments and decisions that must be made. I soo covet your prayers and appreciate so much all of the support I am receiving from soo many of you. I know there will probably be times where I will grow weary and overwhelmed and I will lean then not only on my God but on all of those He has blessed me with to do His work. I see God's hand already as He has begun to work out details that only He could. I will leave you with one last scripture that the Lord placed on my heart last January to claim as "my" scripture for 2010...
Jer 29:11 For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says the LORD, thoughts of peace and not of evil, to give you a future and a hope.
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May the Lord make His face shine upon you all....
Psalm 32:7 You are my hiding place; You shall preserve me from trouble; You shall surround me with songs of deliverance.
Psalm 50:15 Call upon Me in the day of trouble; I will deliver you, and you shall glorify Me."
Psalm 59:16 But I will sing of Your power; Yes, I will sing aloud of Your mercy in the morning; For You have been my defense And refuge in the day of my trouble.
Psalm 17:8 Keep me as the apple of Your eye; Hide me under the shadow of Your wings,
Psalm 63:7 Because You have been my help, Therefore in the shadow of Your wings I will rejoice.
Psalm 56:4 In God I will praise His word, In God I have put my trust; I will not fear. What can flesh do to me?
Isa 41:13 For I, the LORD your God, will hold your right hand, Saying to you, 'Fear not, I will help you.'
There are MANY MANY more, but I will stop here. There IS power in His Word. There IS hope for all who believe and He WILL see me through all this of this I have no doubt. I have many busy days ahead full of doctor appointments and decisions that must be made. I soo covet your prayers and appreciate so much all of the support I am receiving from soo many of you. I know there will probably be times where I will grow weary and overwhelmed and I will lean then not only on my God but on all of those He has blessed me with to do His work. I see God's hand already as He has begun to work out details that only He could. I will leave you with one last scripture that the Lord placed on my heart last January to claim as "my" scripture for 2010...
Jer 29:11 For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says the LORD, thoughts of peace and not of evil, to give you a future and a hope.
Just doesn't get any better than that does it? To join the other Spiritual Sunday posts, click HERE. Soo many thanks to Charlotte and Ginger for hosting this event that soo blesses so many.
May the Lord make His face shine upon you all....
Thursday, May 20, 2010
THE NEWS
Well I have finally heard the news....the good and the bad....The bottom line is I do have breast cancer. It feels weird to type that out. I feel strangely peaceful. I am going to go with it is God has His arms wrapped around me, and not that I am in shock. But maybe it is a little of both. The good news is the doctor told me that if you have to get "this" news that I am getting the very best there is in that it is in the VERY earliest stage. Still VERY treatable. He used some medical terms that didn't sink in yet, but I guess something about it not being invasive. They have already scheduled my appointments for next week. I see the cardiologist on Mon. (I do have heart palpitations ~ have for quite a while now) so need to check that out, and then the surgeon on tues. and then the oncologist on Wed. I have the move coming up as well so I guess I will have a lot of other things to focus on. I am choosing to thank God that the original problem came up like it did or I would have NEVER gone for the mammogram when I did which might have changed how early all of this was caught. I am choosing to thank God for my family who will help get me through all of this. I am thanking God that my Melly is through with school and can come for the surgery and be my nurse afterwards. I do know I need her and so did He. I am also thanking God for all of you to pray and hold me up when I am weak as I know I will have my moments of. Sooo, guess that is it for now. My sisters are here and we are going to spend the day seeing the new house and focusing on something else. God bless you all....Debbie
Wednesday, May 19, 2010
WAITING
Good Morning to you all...
I just wanted to thank you all for your prayers, kind comments, e-mails and telephone calls. How I appreciate it all could never be properly expressed, but please know that I do.
As my daughter explained (thanks Mel) the biopsy didn't exactly go as planned. My radiologist who did the procedure told me he has done over 2,000 of these and I was only the second one that it had ever happened to. Guess I could be grateful (and I am) that most women do not go through what I did. I do wish I had escaped it too, but AGAIN...it is what it is. The good news is I am feeling MUCH better today. The swelling has gone down (though not completely for sure) and I am off the pain meds (hate those soo much so YAY to that) and my ultra sound yesterday revealed that it is SLOWLY improving. Sooo now I go back in tomorrow for another check and if it is continuing to go down they will probably be done with me. If not, then they will drain in on Thursday afternoon. I am of course praying that it will not be necessary. I am not really wanting them to touch me again anytime too soon, haha. I will tell you this. I don't think I am a baby when it comes to pain. I have had 4 babies (1 completely without drugs) a hysterectomy, gall bladder surgery and suffer from daily arthritis pain and I have NEVER come close to that kind of pain. It was REALLY bad. I think it was because I had to wait most of the day to get some pain medication, and by then it was completely out of control. But, it is behind me now and I am grateful. And now I wait. I will most likely hear today. I have been ALL OVER THE PLACE with this. I am trusting God that whatever the outcome He will see me through. He NEVER lets me down and I know my trust is well placed. And yet of course I am VERY human and my mind does waver over into the what if's way more frequently than I want it to. But I love that He understands my weaknesses and human limitations and loves me anyway and I can run to Him just as many times as I need too.
Worry does not empty tomorrow of its sorrow; it empties today of its strength." - Corrie Ten Boom
I read this quote this morning on Laurie's facebook and I thought oh how true this is. And then of course there is always..
Matthew 6:24 Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about its own things. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble.
So for the rest of this day I will dwell on some of my favorite verses in the Bible, and believe that its promises are true....the peace of God will be mine.
Phil 4: 8 - 9 Finally, brethren, whatever things are true, whatever things are noble, whatever things are just, whatever things are pure, whatever things are lovely, whatever things are of good report, if there is any virtue and if there is anything praiseworthy--meditate on these things. The things which you learned and received and heard and saw in me, these do, and the God of peace will be with you.
I just wanted to thank you all for your prayers, kind comments, e-mails and telephone calls. How I appreciate it all could never be properly expressed, but please know that I do.
As my daughter explained (thanks Mel) the biopsy didn't exactly go as planned. My radiologist who did the procedure told me he has done over 2,000 of these and I was only the second one that it had ever happened to. Guess I could be grateful (and I am) that most women do not go through what I did. I do wish I had escaped it too, but AGAIN...it is what it is. The good news is I am feeling MUCH better today. The swelling has gone down (though not completely for sure) and I am off the pain meds (hate those soo much so YAY to that) and my ultra sound yesterday revealed that it is SLOWLY improving. Sooo now I go back in tomorrow for another check and if it is continuing to go down they will probably be done with me. If not, then they will drain in on Thursday afternoon. I am of course praying that it will not be necessary. I am not really wanting them to touch me again anytime too soon, haha. I will tell you this. I don't think I am a baby when it comes to pain. I have had 4 babies (1 completely without drugs) a hysterectomy, gall bladder surgery and suffer from daily arthritis pain and I have NEVER come close to that kind of pain. It was REALLY bad. I think it was because I had to wait most of the day to get some pain medication, and by then it was completely out of control. But, it is behind me now and I am grateful. And now I wait. I will most likely hear today. I have been ALL OVER THE PLACE with this. I am trusting God that whatever the outcome He will see me through. He NEVER lets me down and I know my trust is well placed. And yet of course I am VERY human and my mind does waver over into the what if's way more frequently than I want it to. But I love that He understands my weaknesses and human limitations and loves me anyway and I can run to Him just as many times as I need too.
Worry does not empty tomorrow of its sorrow; it empties today of its strength." - Corrie Ten Boom
I read this quote this morning on Laurie's facebook and I thought oh how true this is. And then of course there is always..
Matthew 6:24 Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about its own things. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble.
So for the rest of this day I will dwell on some of my favorite verses in the Bible, and believe that its promises are true....the peace of God will be mine.
Phil 4: 8 - 9 Finally, brethren, whatever things are true, whatever things are noble, whatever things are just, whatever things are pure, whatever things are lovely, whatever things are of good report, if there is any virtue and if there is anything praiseworthy--meditate on these things. The things which you learned and received and heard and saw in me, these do, and the God of peace will be with you.
Monday, May 17, 2010
Prayers Needed
This is Debbie's daughter, I just wanted to give everyone a little update and ask for prayer. My mom went in for her biopsy this morning... the biopsy itself went fine, although she said it was quite painful - more so than she had heard or was expecting. She got home and found herself in a lot of pain. At first she just thought she was being a baby, but as time went on she decided to go ahead and go back because she thought something must be wrong. Come to find out, she has a hematoma. The doctor said it happens once in awhile, though not very often, and that yes it is in fact very painful. He didn't want to do anything about it right there for fear of too much bleeding, so she is to go back in tomorrow to have another ultra sound, then again on Wednesday to have it aspirated or drained. In the mean time they are calling in pain medication for her.
Needless to say, this is not the way she thought this whole thing would go! She was already a little anxious about the results, and now all this on top of it. She specifically asked me to come on here and write this because she knows you will all pray for her. You all mean so much to her! So please pray for her quick recovery, that her pain would die down and that nothing more will go wrong with this, and of course the ultimate results of the biopsy.
Thank you!
Needless to say, this is not the way she thought this whole thing would go! She was already a little anxious about the results, and now all this on top of it. She specifically asked me to come on here and write this because she knows you will all pray for her. You all mean so much to her! So please pray for her quick recovery, that her pain would die down and that nothing more will go wrong with this, and of course the ultimate results of the biopsy.
Thank you!
Thursday, May 13, 2010
SOO MANY BLESSINGS
Well it is Thankful Thursday again and even though I am a little behind I am happy that it is time to count my blessings...
I am thankful for many different things this week which I will list in a moment, but first I just have to say how grateful I am for my Lord and the peace He (and only He) has given me. As I have already mentioned in my other posts I have soo much going on. And there have been moments (and sometimes even a longer period of time as well) where the enemy has done his very best to render me helpless and frantic and I have felt panic setting in and an overwhelming feeling of doom and I can't possibly deal with it all. But then I pray and seek Him and I feel Him touch my spirit with a sense of calm and peace and love and I KNOW He will see me through. Sometimes He leads me to just the right blog where He is able to minister to me with just the right words that He has placed on the hearts of one some of you. This morning I was reading over @ Smelling Coffee and it was like she had written it just for me. If you get the chance check out this wonderful blog (most of you probably already read her) She shared a verse from Isaiah which I can't tell you how much it ministered to me.
"Fear not (there is nothing to fear), for I am with you; do not look around you in terror and be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen and harden you to difficulties, yes, I will help you; yes, I will hold you up and retain you with My (victorious) right hand of rightness and justice." Isaiah 41:10 (Amp)
Isn't that just wonderful? There are just soo many wonderful words straight from Almighty God Himself to fill our spirits and bring us comfort. How I praise Him for that.
I am grateful for my sisters and my kids and my mom this week. I am ALWAYS grateful for them all, but this week they have just soo filled in the cracks for me and helped me with words of encouragement, AND with willingness to help with all the things that need to be done. I PRAISE GOD for them all.
I am grateful that our offer was accepted on the home we found, and that we opened escrow yesterday. Sooo much is involved in this that I could never begin to tell the WHOLE story. But it is enough for you to know that God's hand is all over it and He has worked out details in a way that only He can. The escrow will be short and we hope to close some where around the first week of June. After the close of escrow we will take a few weeks and do the work we want to do on the place before we move in. Then of course we will pack up this house that we have lived in for over 24 years and move to the next place He has chosen for us. I am both tremendously excited and yet sad and somewhat overwelmed with all that must be done all at the same time. Soo many memories and happy times have happened in this house. We raised our family here. Melody lived here her whole life until the day she married. She is having somewhat of hard time with this by the way, if you could lift her in prayer. But at the end of the day it is just a house. The heart of our home will be wherever we are at. I am soo grateful that we have found this new home, and I LOVE the new surroundings.
I could go on and on but I do need to get busy with many other things on this day. I am feeling the tiny beginnings of a cough and I would ask that you might pray that it does not develop into anything as I do have the biopsy on Mon morning. I can't tell you how much I appreciate being able to reach out to soo many wonderful, caring women and have them go to the throne of God for me. I consider it a privilege by the way to pray for all of you as well, so please e-mail me if you have any specific requests.
This week I have decided to mention for a blog that soo blesses me and little bit as to why....
Genn @ Life at the Hass House. This young woman is also one of the very first blogs I ever followed. I have never actually met her but feel as though I have gotten to know her pretty well over this last year. Her posts are entertaining, funny, and full of the goings on in her life. She has adorable kids and she takes some of the best pictures I have ever seen for someone who is not a professional photographer. In fact, I think she could do something professionally with this if she really wanted to. She frequently makes me laugh, but she ALWAYS makes me smile. Check out her blog and ENJOY yourself. May the Lord bless you special today Genn, how I thank Him for you!
To read the other Thankful Thursday posts, click HERE...
I am thankful for many different things this week which I will list in a moment, but first I just have to say how grateful I am for my Lord and the peace He (and only He) has given me. As I have already mentioned in my other posts I have soo much going on. And there have been moments (and sometimes even a longer period of time as well) where the enemy has done his very best to render me helpless and frantic and I have felt panic setting in and an overwhelming feeling of doom and I can't possibly deal with it all. But then I pray and seek Him and I feel Him touch my spirit with a sense of calm and peace and love and I KNOW He will see me through. Sometimes He leads me to just the right blog where He is able to minister to me with just the right words that He has placed on the hearts of one some of you. This morning I was reading over @ Smelling Coffee and it was like she had written it just for me. If you get the chance check out this wonderful blog (most of you probably already read her) She shared a verse from Isaiah which I can't tell you how much it ministered to me.
"Fear not (there is nothing to fear), for I am with you; do not look around you in terror and be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen and harden you to difficulties, yes, I will help you; yes, I will hold you up and retain you with My (victorious) right hand of rightness and justice." Isaiah 41:10 (Amp)
Isn't that just wonderful? There are just soo many wonderful words straight from Almighty God Himself to fill our spirits and bring us comfort. How I praise Him for that.
I am grateful for my sisters and my kids and my mom this week. I am ALWAYS grateful for them all, but this week they have just soo filled in the cracks for me and helped me with words of encouragement, AND with willingness to help with all the things that need to be done. I PRAISE GOD for them all.
I am grateful that our offer was accepted on the home we found, and that we opened escrow yesterday. Sooo much is involved in this that I could never begin to tell the WHOLE story. But it is enough for you to know that God's hand is all over it and He has worked out details in a way that only He can. The escrow will be short and we hope to close some where around the first week of June. After the close of escrow we will take a few weeks and do the work we want to do on the place before we move in. Then of course we will pack up this house that we have lived in for over 24 years and move to the next place He has chosen for us. I am both tremendously excited and yet sad and somewhat overwelmed with all that must be done all at the same time. Soo many memories and happy times have happened in this house. We raised our family here. Melody lived here her whole life until the day she married. She is having somewhat of hard time with this by the way, if you could lift her in prayer. But at the end of the day it is just a house. The heart of our home will be wherever we are at. I am soo grateful that we have found this new home, and I LOVE the new surroundings.
I could go on and on but I do need to get busy with many other things on this day. I am feeling the tiny beginnings of a cough and I would ask that you might pray that it does not develop into anything as I do have the biopsy on Mon morning. I can't tell you how much I appreciate being able to reach out to soo many wonderful, caring women and have them go to the throne of God for me. I consider it a privilege by the way to pray for all of you as well, so please e-mail me if you have any specific requests.
This week I have decided to mention for a blog that soo blesses me and little bit as to why....
Genn @ Life at the Hass House. This young woman is also one of the very first blogs I ever followed. I have never actually met her but feel as though I have gotten to know her pretty well over this last year. Her posts are entertaining, funny, and full of the goings on in her life. She has adorable kids and she takes some of the best pictures I have ever seen for someone who is not a professional photographer. In fact, I think she could do something professionally with this if she really wanted to. She frequently makes me laugh, but she ALWAYS makes me smile. Check out her blog and ENJOY yourself. May the Lord bless you special today Genn, how I thank Him for you!
To read the other Thankful Thursday posts, click HERE...
Monday, May 10, 2010
AN UPDATE AND SOME RANDOM EXTRA'S....
I can't begin to tell you how MANY things seem to be happening right now. I am VERY overwhelmed with all of it, and yet I know that the Lord is still on His throne, sees the beginning from the end, and knows every detail (both large and small) in between. So I continue to trust in Him and continue to wait on Him and continue to look to Him for my comfort and direction.
First of all, I FINALLY have the date for the biopsy. It is to be next Mon morning at 8:00 am...It seems almost impossible to wait ANOTHER whole week, and yet it is what it is. I should have the results by the following Thursday which means no doubt next week will be hard. I continue to MAINLY rest in Him with the whole thing, but I will confess that there are those moments when my eyes waver off of Him and I find myself fearful and apprehensive. I must keep praying and trusting, and not leave any room for the enemy to work. I will soo appreciate your continued prayers with this whole experience.
Then, we are prayerfully considering buying a mobile home in a beautiful senior citizens park. There is MUCH involved. I am not going to go into details, but it is a REALLY big step for us. At 55 my daughter feels we are WAY too young for this park yet, but I have assured her we are of legal age, haha. If circumstances were different we probably wouldn't be considering this yet, and yet, AGAIN, it is what it is. The park is BEAUTIFUL and surrounds a lake and is so peaceful, and I can soo easily picture us being very happy there. The mobile home is 1900 square feet, so while I will have to get rid of things (my home for the last 25 years is around 2600 sq. feet) it is still big enough for my family to gather together when we can. This was NOT easy to find ~ one that was big enough and yet still affordable. It would require a "little" bit of work, and yet not enough to be too expensive or a burden to get done. All of this happening WHILE I wait with the possibility of dealing with breast cancer is somewhat overwhelming, and yet the timing AGAIN, is what it is. I know the Lord knows all of these details so I will just wait on Him. Have I mentioned I DON'T wait well? haha But the most important thing is feeling sure this is God's will for us right now. So AGAIN, I covet your prayers on this issue, and I will keep you posted as to what and where He leads us.
Now onto to some "lighter" subjects, haha...My Melly is officially FINALLY & COMPLETELY done with grad school and all of her student teaching and is putting out her resume's as I type this!! I am soo proud of her. She has worked hard and LONG and I am praying she finds just the right spot. She is hoping for KG - the 3rd grade, but of course will take anything available. The school and budget cuts have hit New Mexico now so it will be ALOT more difficult to get a job then it was last year at this time. I can't bear for her to have worked this hard and long only to not find a job, but I do PRAISE GOD that the money for her is not the issue as much as it is just her hearts desire. She would make SUCH a wonderful teacher, so I pray He works out all of the details. She student taught a 2nd grade this entire last semester and her last day was a couple of weeks ago and the faculty and the students both gave her big parties. She said she got soo many wonderful things that it took her 4 trips to get it all to the car. They also had a cake made in the shape of a chalk board. I stole a few of her pics off of facebook to show you....
And finally, I had SUCH a wonderful Mother's Day week-end and I am hoping you all did as well. I had LONG visits, flowers, a movie, a new nightie, perfume, candy, a fruit edible arrangement (soo yummy) cards, wonderful dinners but most of all the best kids ever to celebrate with. My hubby and I took my mom & dad to the Candlelight Pavilion and saw Thoroughly Modern Millie on Sat. night. What a good time we had. The food was wonderful and the play made you want to dance and sing along. Love you soo much mom!
I am sorry this was soo long. There is so much on my mind. I am just taking a day at a time and sometimes a moment at a time. I am so grateful that I have the Lord to lean on, such wonderful family and friends that love me, and ALL OF YOU as well. Whatever would I do without it all?
A quick side note....Melody just called and she has her first interview tomorrow at 9 am for the third grade! Please keep this in prayer.... = )
First of all, I FINALLY have the date for the biopsy. It is to be next Mon morning at 8:00 am...It seems almost impossible to wait ANOTHER whole week, and yet it is what it is. I should have the results by the following Thursday which means no doubt next week will be hard. I continue to MAINLY rest in Him with the whole thing, but I will confess that there are those moments when my eyes waver off of Him and I find myself fearful and apprehensive. I must keep praying and trusting, and not leave any room for the enemy to work. I will soo appreciate your continued prayers with this whole experience.
Then, we are prayerfully considering buying a mobile home in a beautiful senior citizens park. There is MUCH involved. I am not going to go into details, but it is a REALLY big step for us. At 55 my daughter feels we are WAY too young for this park yet, but I have assured her we are of legal age, haha. If circumstances were different we probably wouldn't be considering this yet, and yet, AGAIN, it is what it is. The park is BEAUTIFUL and surrounds a lake and is so peaceful, and I can soo easily picture us being very happy there. The mobile home is 1900 square feet, so while I will have to get rid of things (my home for the last 25 years is around 2600 sq. feet) it is still big enough for my family to gather together when we can. This was NOT easy to find ~ one that was big enough and yet still affordable. It would require a "little" bit of work, and yet not enough to be too expensive or a burden to get done. All of this happening WHILE I wait with the possibility of dealing with breast cancer is somewhat overwhelming, and yet the timing AGAIN, is what it is. I know the Lord knows all of these details so I will just wait on Him. Have I mentioned I DON'T wait well? haha But the most important thing is feeling sure this is God's will for us right now. So AGAIN, I covet your prayers on this issue, and I will keep you posted as to what and where He leads us.
Now onto to some "lighter" subjects, haha...My Melly is officially FINALLY & COMPLETELY done with grad school and all of her student teaching and is putting out her resume's as I type this!! I am soo proud of her. She has worked hard and LONG and I am praying she finds just the right spot. She is hoping for KG - the 3rd grade, but of course will take anything available. The school and budget cuts have hit New Mexico now so it will be ALOT more difficult to get a job then it was last year at this time. I can't bear for her to have worked this hard and long only to not find a job, but I do PRAISE GOD that the money for her is not the issue as much as it is just her hearts desire. She would make SUCH a wonderful teacher, so I pray He works out all of the details. She student taught a 2nd grade this entire last semester and her last day was a couple of weeks ago and the faculty and the students both gave her big parties. She said she got soo many wonderful things that it took her 4 trips to get it all to the car. They also had a cake made in the shape of a chalk board. I stole a few of her pics off of facebook to show you....
MEL & BAXTER
I MISS HER SOOO MUCH!
THE DARLING CAKE
THE WREATH FOR HER DOOR
I am sorry this was soo long. There is so much on my mind. I am just taking a day at a time and sometimes a moment at a time. I am so grateful that I have the Lord to lean on, such wonderful family and friends that love me, and ALL OF YOU as well. Whatever would I do without it all?
A quick side note....Melody just called and she has her first interview tomorrow at 9 am for the third grade! Please keep this in prayer.... = )
Friday, May 7, 2010
HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY!
For you created my inmost being;
you knit me together in my mother's womb.
I praise you because I am fearfully
and wonderfully made; your works are
wonderful, I know that full well.
My frame was not hidden from you
when I was made in the secret place.
When I was woven together in the
depths of the earth, your eyes saw my
unformed body.
All the days ordained for me
were written in your book
before one of them came to be.
How precious to me are your
thoughts, O God!
How vast is the sum of them!
Psalm 139:13-17
This Sunday millions of mother’s will celebrate their special day. Motherhood is a lifelong calling that is full of every emotion known to man; from indescribable joy to overwhelming sadness, and everything in between. My journey of motherhood, and now as a grandma as well, is one that in many ways (though not all of course) has described who I am.
I became a mom at a mere 18 years of age and had NO IDEA just what was involved in fulfilling this role. I found myself QUITE overwhelmed with a baby who didn’t know the difference between night and day (a common thing I later learned, haha) every two hour feedings that ALWAYS ended in a spit up mess, and constant diaper changes (back in the day when that involved cloth diapers, plastic pants, and safety pins). For weeks it seemed my life completely revolved around feedings, diaper changes, lack of sleep, and yet more diaper changes that never seemed to stop. But one day, that sweet little baby smiled up at me and my heart melted and love that can’t be understood until you stand in those shoes filled my very being and I have never been quite the same.
But as I began to add more babies to my busy life I LONGED for the day with a minute to myself. I found it didn’t exist (even in the bathroom) and life became a juggling act. Meals, laundry, school and homework, car pools, sports events, orthodontics, doctor visits, and birthday parties and on and on the list went. I tried to mix all this in with being a wife, a daughter, and a just a woman with interests of my own, and found it very difficult indeed. A mother’s job involves so many different roles I leaned. She is a cook, a nurse, a councilor, a friend, a referee, a cheerleader, a comforter, an encourager, and most of all a teacher and these are just to name a few. These middle of the road years were so full and busy for me, that while I was going through them I was quite certain life would never change and I would always be on a treadmill running, never quite making it to where I was going.
But suddenly they were teenagers and a whole new set of challenges became my world. Driver’s licenses, parties and dating, college choices and career decisions found me on my knees and begging the Lord for His protection and longing for the days when I knew just where they were all the time and a kiss made everything better. And then it seemed as though things began to finally fall into place. Graduations, jobs, weddings, and even babies of their own filled my days.
THE BEST KIDS EVER
JAMES, JOHN, MELODY & JOE
My life with my children and now my grandchildren is a gift from my Lord that I will never be able to thank Him quite enough for. They have filled it with so much love and joy, laughter and sweetness of life that I know I have been truly blessed. My own precious mother has been all of these things to me and so much more. The older and older I have become the more my understanding and appreciation for all she has done for me has grown and I love her with a love that still continues to grow. May all the mother’s reading this have a WONDERFUL MOTHER’S DAY and may God’s face shine upon you all.
Psalm 127: 3, 4 Behold, children are a heritage from the Lord; the fruit of the womb is a reward. Like arrows in the hand of a warrior, so are the children of one’s youth
Many thanks to Charlotte and Ginger for hosting this special time. To join the other Spiritual Sunday posts click HERE.
Wednesday, May 5, 2010
THANKING HIM
Tomorrow is Thankful Thursday and as always I don't have to think very hard to count my blessings. Even when life hands us various difficulties and trials, the blessings are still there. PRAISE GOD...In fact, His word tells us to count the trials themselves as blessings as the working out of these trials strengthens our faith.
James 1:2,3 My brethren, count it all joy when you fall into various trials, knowing that the testing of your faith produces patience.
1Peter 1:6,7 In this you greatly rejoice, though now for a little while, if need be, you have been grieved by various trials, that the genuineness of your faith, being much more precious than gold that perishes, though it is tested by fire, may be found to praise, honor, and glory at the revelation of Jesus Christ..
I am very grateful for the support of soo many family and friends as I wait for this biopsy to be done. (if you want more details, check out my last two posts) My gracious Lord has provided many with "skin and feet" haha to do His work for Him. I have felt your prayers deep in my spirit, and I am just soo blessed by it.
I am happy that we got to spend last Sunday afternoon at the Dodger game with my middle son John and his new girlfriend Yolanda. We also met her parents and what nice people they are. We had such a good time. It was a LONG UP HILL walk from our car to our seats and I was sooo grateful that even though my knees were definitely protesting, I made it just fine. To finish off the perfect afternoon, the Dodgers won 9 to 2...GO DODGERS. Thanks for the tickets John...
I am grateful that Sunday is Mother's Day as this means a visit from all my boys and my dil's and my precious grandbabies. I will miss my Melly for sure, but there are many to distract me. And I am grateful that the weather has been soo nice and we can relax and swim and barbeque while we enjoy each other.
I am grateful that when I am needing a little pick me up, some of my grandkids are a short 5 minutes away. On Sat. afternoon we stopped by Joe's briefly after running some errands and found Cody busy with his broom "helping" daddy. How I love him. Such a BUSY little guy. Now that I am not babysitting anymore I can't believe how much I have missed this sweet little boy. He was soo funny on Sat. He was soo excited to see me and immediately began saying "MA" etc. He soo wanted me to pick him up but it would have meant putting his broom down. You could see the conflict in his little eyes. At one point he laid the broom down, but then panic set in and he quickly picked it back up. The broom won, haha...
And finally (for now) I am soo grateful for my comfy pink chair that sits right beside my fireplace and the sliding glass door to my backyard. The weather has been soo pretty these last few days and I can sit here and have my quiet time with my Lord and visit with all of you on my computer, with the door open and a wonderful breeze blowing in. I can hear all the birds as they chirp around busy with their day. A tiny hummingbird is enjoying the flowers in my pot behind the pool. Elvis, (our dog) lies beside me at the door watching for anything to report, but content most of the time to just enjoy his day with someone near. I can hear my washer and dryer busy with their respective loads in the background, as the grandfather clock ticks out the passing time. Yes, I have MUCH to be grateful for. How I LOVE the Springtime.
I have found myself these last couple of days trying to decide which blogger to mention that blesses me and truthfully it is very difficult as there are just soo many of you who do. But this week I have decided to mention Sue @ Where Memories are Made. I think MANY of you already read this wonderful woman. But if you don't, you are in for a marvelous treat. I consider her a kindred spirit and a good friend even though we have never met and probably never will this side of heaven. But I can't tell you enough good things about her. She is a wonderful Christian woman who lives on a glorious farm and shares her memories and stories from her heart. She is inspiring and uplifting and giving and is truly just the picture of a real woman of the King. Check out her blog, and you will be truly blessed. Her most recent post is instructions on how to make her wonderous Strawberry jam. How I thank God for you Sue! May the Lord bless you especially today, and always as well.
To join the other Thankful Thursday posts, click HERE...
James 1:2,3 My brethren, count it all joy when you fall into various trials, knowing that the testing of your faith produces patience.
1Peter 1:6,7 In this you greatly rejoice, though now for a little while, if need be, you have been grieved by various trials, that the genuineness of your faith, being much more precious than gold that perishes, though it is tested by fire, may be found to praise, honor, and glory at the revelation of Jesus Christ..
I am very grateful for the support of soo many family and friends as I wait for this biopsy to be done. (if you want more details, check out my last two posts) My gracious Lord has provided many with "skin and feet" haha to do His work for Him. I have felt your prayers deep in my spirit, and I am just soo blessed by it.
I am happy that we got to spend last Sunday afternoon at the Dodger game with my middle son John and his new girlfriend Yolanda. We also met her parents and what nice people they are. We had such a good time. It was a LONG UP HILL walk from our car to our seats and I was sooo grateful that even though my knees were definitely protesting, I made it just fine. To finish off the perfect afternoon, the Dodgers won 9 to 2...GO DODGERS. Thanks for the tickets John...
OUR VIEW
SUCH A PRETTY GIRL
I am grateful that Sunday is Mother's Day as this means a visit from all my boys and my dil's and my precious grandbabies. I will miss my Melly for sure, but there are many to distract me. And I am grateful that the weather has been soo nice and we can relax and swim and barbeque while we enjoy each other.
I am grateful that when I am needing a little pick me up, some of my grandkids are a short 5 minutes away. On Sat. afternoon we stopped by Joe's briefly after running some errands and found Cody busy with his broom "helping" daddy. How I love him. Such a BUSY little guy. Now that I am not babysitting anymore I can't believe how much I have missed this sweet little boy. He was soo funny on Sat. He was soo excited to see me and immediately began saying "MA" etc. He soo wanted me to pick him up but it would have meant putting his broom down. You could see the conflict in his little eyes. At one point he laid the broom down, but then panic set in and he quickly picked it back up. The broom won, haha...
LOOK AT THAT CUTE LITTLE FACE...HE KNEW HE HAD SOMETHING "BIG"
PRETTY GOOD JOB CODY!
Jeffie learned to ride a two wheeler this week-end. He was soo anxious to get back out there he wasn't wanting to stop and even get dressed, haha...He has since (in just the last 3 days) moved on to the much bigger bike, complete with helmet. They grow up soo fast. GOOD JOB my Jeffie..
And finally (for now) I am soo grateful for my comfy pink chair that sits right beside my fireplace and the sliding glass door to my backyard. The weather has been soo pretty these last few days and I can sit here and have my quiet time with my Lord and visit with all of you on my computer, with the door open and a wonderful breeze blowing in. I can hear all the birds as they chirp around busy with their day. A tiny hummingbird is enjoying the flowers in my pot behind the pool. Elvis, (our dog) lies beside me at the door watching for anything to report, but content most of the time to just enjoy his day with someone near. I can hear my washer and dryer busy with their respective loads in the background, as the grandfather clock ticks out the passing time. Yes, I have MUCH to be grateful for. How I LOVE the Springtime.
ELVIS
I have found myself these last couple of days trying to decide which blogger to mention that blesses me and truthfully it is very difficult as there are just soo many of you who do. But this week I have decided to mention Sue @ Where Memories are Made. I think MANY of you already read this wonderful woman. But if you don't, you are in for a marvelous treat. I consider her a kindred spirit and a good friend even though we have never met and probably never will this side of heaven. But I can't tell you enough good things about her. She is a wonderful Christian woman who lives on a glorious farm and shares her memories and stories from her heart. She is inspiring and uplifting and giving and is truly just the picture of a real woman of the King. Check out her blog, and you will be truly blessed. Her most recent post is instructions on how to make her wonderous Strawberry jam. How I thank God for you Sue! May the Lord bless you especially today, and always as well.
To join the other Thankful Thursday posts, click HERE...
Tuesday, May 4, 2010
A QUICK UPDATE
This will be just a quick update on what is happening with my biopsy. First let me start by saying how much I appreciate all the prayers, comments and e-mails from you all.. I have DEFINITELY felt God's peace through this so far, and for those of you who know me well, you know how easily I tend to panic in situations like this so I KNOW it is coming from Him. I am simply unable to muster it up on my own. I have found my mind wondering of course a couple of time to the "what ifs" but quickly have been able to bring my thoughts back into captivity by Him..
2Cr 10:5 casting down arguments and every high thing that exalts itself against the knowledge of God, bringing every thought into captivity to the obedience of Christ,
I found out today that I had to request the mamo films BEFORE they could schedule the biopsy (A FACT YOU THINK THEY MIGHT HAVE MENTIONED) and also found out that it takes 48 hours to get the films after you request them. Then I have to pick them up and take them over to the place that will do the biopsy and they will schedule the test after viewing them for themselves. They told me it will probably then be at least one week if not two from that point before I will actually get the test! Soo, as you can clearly see, I am just going to have to wait. Not something I EVER do well, but especially with something this large hanging in the balance, will be VERY difficult. HOWEVER, I will admit my original reaction was a few tears of frustration and a moment or two of panic. It bothers me how quickly it seems things seem to get dropped or slip through the cracks if you’re not really watching. If I hadn't been calling around on my own I wonder how long it might have taken to find out that I needed to request the films. But, I quickly prayed and began to feel a little better and then my oldest son Joe called (about another matter altogether) and he knows me very well and could tell I was a little "weird"...He talked to me and within a half hour or so I felt soo much better. I believe he was the answer to my quick prayer. Often times I believe God will send an answer with skin on, haha...
So, I guess for now I just wait. I still believe there are no accidents or coincidences or chance happenings. I have put my life in the hands of my Savior and He will work out all the details for me. I have done everything I can do and so now He will work out all the little details for me. I soo appreciate your continued prayers on all of this and when I FINALLY do know when the biopsy is to be I will tell you so that you can cover it all in prayer. And in the meantime, I have many other happy and peaceful things and ways to occupy my mind and heart, and how I thank Him for that.
God Bless you all....
2Cr 10:5 casting down arguments and every high thing that exalts itself against the knowledge of God, bringing every thought into captivity to the obedience of Christ,
I found out today that I had to request the mamo films BEFORE they could schedule the biopsy (A FACT YOU THINK THEY MIGHT HAVE MENTIONED) and also found out that it takes 48 hours to get the films after you request them. Then I have to pick them up and take them over to the place that will do the biopsy and they will schedule the test after viewing them for themselves. They told me it will probably then be at least one week if not two from that point before I will actually get the test! Soo, as you can clearly see, I am just going to have to wait. Not something I EVER do well, but especially with something this large hanging in the balance, will be VERY difficult. HOWEVER, I will admit my original reaction was a few tears of frustration and a moment or two of panic. It bothers me how quickly it seems things seem to get dropped or slip through the cracks if you’re not really watching. If I hadn't been calling around on my own I wonder how long it might have taken to find out that I needed to request the films. But, I quickly prayed and began to feel a little better and then my oldest son Joe called (about another matter altogether) and he knows me very well and could tell I was a little "weird"...He talked to me and within a half hour or so I felt soo much better. I believe he was the answer to my quick prayer. Often times I believe God will send an answer with skin on, haha...
So, I guess for now I just wait. I still believe there are no accidents or coincidences or chance happenings. I have put my life in the hands of my Savior and He will work out all the details for me. I have done everything I can do and so now He will work out all the little details for me. I soo appreciate your continued prayers on all of this and when I FINALLY do know when the biopsy is to be I will tell you so that you can cover it all in prayer. And in the meantime, I have many other happy and peaceful things and ways to occupy my mind and heart, and how I thank Him for that.
God Bless you all....
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