Monday, May 13, 2013

SOME SAD NEWS.....

I wonder how many times in life it is that the unexpected happens when you least think it might...My mother's day was nothing I had pictured in my mind.  As we were driving down to San Diego yesterday for church and to celebrate with my kids and grandkids, I decided to give my own mama a call and wish her a happy day.  I knew she had all of her plans in place as well and was excited for her day right down to a new "springy" outfit to wear.  I found the household in chaos as something was wrong with mom and the paramedics were on the scene.  In an instant we changed our destination and headed for the hospital.  Within an hour we heard that my poor mom had suffered another stroke, and this one was massive.  The specialist was called (the same doctor who had done her neck surgery) and the prognosis was poor.  Not much to be done with the exception of trying a medication that would hopefully shrink some of the swelling in her brain, and maybe absorb some of the blood.  Mom was occasionally opening her eyes, but really not speaking much at all.  They began to talk of the left side of her body being paralyzed, and being blind in one eye.   Truthfully the day was mainly a blur.  Late in the afternoon another CT scan was done to determine if the medication was working, only to discover that not only had it not, but the bleeding was still going on and had now spread to the other side of her brain as well.  There was really nothing more to be done, and so we made her as comfortable as possible and have begun our wait. Soo many of her children and grandchildren gathered in her room that we spent time shifting around sharing chairs and floor space to sit.  Mom has never regained consciousness.  Late last night we all finally left for home leaving my youngest son James to stay the night with her with promises of a call should anything change.  I am not sure how much I may have actually slept last night, but I am already up and almost ready to head back down.  Who knows what this day might hold.  How I wish for just one more conversation with my mom.  My heart is soo heavy right now it is a physical ache in my chest.  I know my mom is in His hands, and that many wait to welcome her at heavens door.  And yet how I will actually bear this is hard to imagine.  Mom has lived here just one short year (in June) and there are traces of her everywhere in this house, and my life recently has been just immersed in hers.  I know my God is gracious, and mighty, and loving, and compassionate, and I will do my best to lean on Him.  Needless to say I covet your prayers on this day and time in my life and lives of my family.  I will post when and if I can.  God's best blessings to you all....Debbie


21 comments:

  1. I am so very sad for you Debbie, but also now that as you wait for her to be absent from the body and present with Jesus, that it is peaceful. No more medications and all of that.
    I will keep you in my prayers and I know that God will keep you under His wings.

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  2. Praying for you and your sweet momma. Praying for grace, strength and comfort to be multiply greatly.

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  3. I started literally clutching at my chest when I saw the title and then began to read.

    My heart is breaking for you. Of all the days in the world for this to happen. Please know that all the heartfelt love I can send through this message is being sent to you and that someone from Georgia is praying for you and your mom today.

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  4. Debbie, having so recently been where you are now, I understand just a bit what you are going through. The waiting, the praying, the trusting. We are praying for you today and throughout and trusting God with you to work out every little thing. Our lives are in His hands and your precious mother is very safe resting there. Praying that you will know that extraordinary peace that He promises and sending much love.

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  5. Sending prayers for your Mom, You and your family,with much love
    Hugs,
    Sue

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  6. Oh Dearest Debbie. My heart aches for all of you. Your Mom has had so much to deal with lately. She is in my prayers, and so are you and your family.
    Love,
    Kris

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  7. My eyes are filled up Debbie as I read this. On Christmas Day, my mom had come from California to be with us and had a massive stroke at my house. I was riding down the freeway in an ambulance with her on Dec.25th, so I am right there with you. I am praying for you Debbie, and for her. My heart is heavy for you, God's heart is too.

    Hugs!

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  8. Oh Debbie my heart breaks for you as I read this. I will be praying for you and your family. praying that you will feel God's comfort and peace. I am so sorry. Praying

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  9. You and your mother are on my prayer list. Hugs.I am so sorry, but I know a better life awaits her. sandie

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  10. Thank you for letting us know and you and your family will be in my prayers. May our loving God give you comfort and His strength this day.

    Bethany

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  11. Debbie,
    I am so very sorry.. I understand what you mean about your mom being everywhere in the house. Was the same with my mom.. Please know I am keeping your mom and all of you in prayer..

    May God bless you and keep you all in His love always.

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  12. Oh I'm so sad for you...I will keep you and your family in my prayers. Take care.

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  13. Bless all of your hearts. I am saddened to hear this, Debbie. I have prayed and will continue for strength and grace for all. Update when you are able.
    Love you~

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  14. Oh, I am so, so sorry Debbie. From what you have described she had the exact same kind of stroke as my Mom had. Mom lasted a little over 48 hours and then crossed over Jordan into the arms of her Savior. May you feel His peace as you face this very difficult time. Hugs to you my friend!

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  15. I am so sorry-prayers going up.

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  16. Debbie, I am so sorry. Those of us who have gone through something so similar know of the pain and emptiness you are even now experiencing. We can testify that you too will find the Lord faithful in this time of need. May you be overwhelmed with His peace and comfort in the days and weeks ahead.

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  17. Dear Debbie, I am so sorry! I hurt so deeply as I read this post. You give and give, and then at times like this, you need us to give back to you. I am praying for you and your beautiful family as you walk this journey with your dear mother.

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  18. Debbie, I've been so behind in my blog reading so I'm just reading this news now. I am so sorry to read this news and I'm praying. Praying for God's will and His perfect timing. God is in control. May you have peace in the midst of all of this.

    Blessings, love, and hugs,
    Debbie

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  19. Oh my...I have been so busy I haven't stopped by...yes, I am praying!!! I am holding you close in my heart! So, so sorry!

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