SOME SAD NEWS.....

I wonder how many times in life it is that the unexpected happens when you least think it might...My mother's day was nothing I had pictured in my mind.  As we were driving down to San Diego yesterday for church and to celebrate with my kids and grandkids, I decided to give my own mama a call and wish her a happy day.  I knew she had all of her plans in place as well and was excited for her day right down to a new "springy" outfit to wear.  I found the household in chaos as something was wrong with mom and the paramedics were on the scene.  In an instant we changed our destination and headed for the hospital.  Within an hour we heard that my poor mom had suffered another stroke, and this one was massive.  The specialist was called (the same doctor who had done her neck surgery) and the prognosis was poor.  Not much to be done with the exception of trying a medication that would hopefully shrink some of the swelling in her brain, and maybe absorb some of the blood.  Mom was occasionally opening her eyes, but really not speaking much at all.  They began to talk of the left side of her body being paralyzed, and being blind in one eye.   Truthfully the day was mainly a blur.  Late in the afternoon another CT scan was done to determine if the medication was working, only to discover that not only had it not, but the bleeding was still going on and had now spread to the other side of her brain as well.  There was really nothing more to be done, and so we made her as comfortable as possible and have begun our wait. Soo many of her children and grandchildren gathered in her room that we spent time shifting around sharing chairs and floor space to sit.  Mom has never regained consciousness.  Late last night we all finally left for home leaving my youngest son James to stay the night with her with promises of a call should anything change.  I am not sure how much I may have actually slept last night, but I am already up and almost ready to head back down.  Who knows what this day might hold.  How I wish for just one more conversation with my mom.  My heart is soo heavy right now it is a physical ache in my chest.  I know my mom is in His hands, and that many wait to welcome her at heavens door.  And yet how I will actually bear this is hard to imagine.  Mom has lived here just one short year (in June) and there are traces of her everywhere in this house, and my life recently has been just immersed in hers.  I know my God is gracious, and mighty, and loving, and compassionate, and I will do my best to lean on Him.  Needless to say I covet your prayers on this day and time in my life and lives of my family.  I will post when and if I can.  God's best blessings to you all....Debbie