Thursday, July 19, 2012

HARD FEW DAYS...

These last several days may have been some of the hardest I have lived through in quite a while.  I think I try to be upbeat and positive and to see the best in a situation or a person as I can.  I hate "drama" and do my very best to avoid it whenever I can.  I will admit to being a person who likes to feel at least a measure of control in what is going on in my life.  At least as much as the situations that you should have some control over go.  I am definitely a realistic sort of person and usually see things  for how they really are, instead of how I am hoping they might be.  I guess because I don't like feeling "out of control".   I like to think ahead and realistically plan out how to best handle situations that might and probably will come up rather than to find myself scrambling around trying to handle it later.   I like order, routine, and schedules.  I don't like what I consider to be chaos, confusion, and constantly changing daily routines.  I don't like people telling me what to do, when to do it, or how.  Especially if it conflicts with my need for "in control" safety, plus you would think that at my stage of life that wouldn't happen much.   Now don't get me wrong.  I know that life throws constant curve balls, there are no guarantees on anything, and we can count on nothing to ever stay the same.  It just isn't how life is.  But sometimes things happen of course that don't have to happen.  You can find yourself knee deep in a situation that wasn't even close to what you thought it was going to be, and people treating you in ways you didn't think they ever would.  I have had trouble sleeping, and this from the gal who could usually doze off just about anywhere.  My tummy is feeling the stress, and my heart just hurts.  And I don't want to even get started on how my knees and legs are doing.  I am definitely just weary and feeling a little overwhelmed.   And so of course I find myself wondering, what in the world I should do?  There is only one answer of course.  And how I praise God that He is ALWAYS there for me.  He brings comfort to my heart and peace to my soul.  It has made me wonder what people do that don't have Him in their life.  How in the world they get along when times get tough.  We CANNOT control many things that come our way in this life.  People can and will hurt you.  But Jesus Christ is the same yesterday, today and tomorrow, and loves us unconditionally always.  I think this is one of those times in my life when I am going to let my mind and heart dwell on this passage in Philippians.   How I love these verses....


Phil. 4:6-9  Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God; and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.  Finally brethren, whatever things are true, whatever things are noble, whatever things are just, whatever things are pure, whatever things are lovely, whatever things are of good report, if there is any virtue and if there is anything praiseworthy, meditate on these things.  The things which you learned, and received and heard and saw in me, these do, and the God of peace will be with you....

Tomorrow I will lunch with my lifetime girl friend (since we were 9 years old we have been the best of friends) and I'll have someone to share my heart with (who isn't family) who always has my back, and will pray with me and make me laugh and remember that life while not always fair, is full of blessings everywhere you look.  And afterwards I am picking up Jeffie and we are going to see the new Ice Age movie.  He told his mama a couple of days ago, "Oh mom, Ice Age is out...and I don't want to see it with anybody but Grandma.  You'd better call her up and tell her because she probably doesn't know."  Now how sweet is that?  How I am looking forward to that sweet little face too.  Hope you all have a GREAT week-end.

Oh, and on a side note....Mel just called and Sam cut his front tooth this morning...FINALLY....AND!! took his first steps this afternoon.  She was soo excited.  Grandma sure shared her joy.

19 comments:

  1. You have been through more changes in the past couple of years than anyone I know. It is bound to wreak havoc in your life somehow! I hope things settle down for you soon Debbie.
    Hooray for Sam!!
    XO Kris

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  2. Oh Debbie, I am so sorry, but it is bound to happen. I will keep praying for you, so glad you have a friend to share with and I love that your grandson wants to go to the movie with his grandma, so sweet. Then a first tooth. Yay!! Keep your eyes on those good things. It always helps.

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  3. Debbie, so sorry things have been so rough. I often have the same thought as you do when I hit a rough patch...how do people who don't know the Lord do it? Thankful that he continues to sustain you. Will continue to keep praying for you.
    You have some adorable grandkids...love te comment from your grandson. Enjoy your time with your girlfriend
    {{Hugs}}

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  4. Debbie, I so identify with all that you are describing. The past 3 years of my life have thrown me more curve balls than I would ever imagined. The Lord has remained my stronghold and I was reading my devotional recently by John PIper where he stated that HE should be our main focus throughout life and it will keep our focus from being the trials we are going through. Much easier said than done but so true.

    Praying you will find peace in the midst of the storm. Hugs to you!

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  5. It's such a blessing to be able to share our hearts with a friend, and most of all, with the Lord.

    I hope you have a restful weekend.

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  6. Thanks for sharing your heart, Debbie, thought of you yesterday and am still praying! God knew exactly what we needed when He gave us true friends!! The scripture you have shared was one that I committed to memory when I was going through a very difficult time in my life, I have since had to use it many times over to regain strength.

    Enjoy this time with your friend , and the movie with Jeffie.
    Hugs,
    Sue

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  7. I'm sorry you're going through all of this. I found myself in your description of YOURSELF in this post. We are very much alike. I will be praying for you Debbie. Have fun with your grandson today!

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  8. First of all Hugs, Hugs, Hugs...I hope you give yourself some slack, these are major changes with a lot of people having opinions I am sure.

    You have turned to the right sources, God first and a cherished friend and then grand children for that happy laughter and balance

    Praying for you now and will continue to do so....so sorry it is hard, life at times is really hard

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  9. So many adjustments to make as we go through this life. Having recently gone through all of this, you have my support and prayers. The Lord is faithful to get us through these times. Keep leaning on Him. Have fun at that movie! It's so much fun to hear how children talk. Your grandson knows you so well!

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  10. I haven't been around in a while, and just read back a bit. I'm SO sorry about your step-dad and about the hard of the past few days. Praying for comfort and peace for you!

    So precious about Little Jeffie's comment, and so glad you have all your little grandchildren to bless you during otherwise hard times!

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  11. (Hugs) and praying for you. Just feel God's arms wrapping around you.

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  12. My dear Debbie, As I read the comments from blogging buddies above, I saw such love for you-hope you see it too. There isn't much more I can add, except that "for this we have Jesus". Wishing I could come take you for coffee and so thankful your bff will be there for you. Praying His peace and grace during these tough times.
    love, Noreen
    p.s. hope you stayed with Ice Age and not something else.

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  13. I know life can be very hard at times and I also know that when we do our best to keep our eyes on Jesus He will see us through. Wonderful news about little Sam and I know you will enjoy the movie with Jeffie. Your precious grandchildren bring such joy just when you need it most.
    xo

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  14. Oh, Debbie ... my heart just hurts for you, dear one. Thankful that you have our Lord to rely on ... and a dear friend as well. {{hug}}

    I'll bet that your heart just melted when you heard what Jeffie told his mama. I know it would mine.

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  15. Praying for you and come in agreement with your prayers. Philippians 4:6-9 are one of my favs....Blessings and hugs to you.

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  16. In the midst of it all, the call comes about the tooth. Doesn't God have the most awesome timing. I hadn't thought until reading this how much our trials are like cutting teeth, aren't they?

    I hope you take the time to schedule REGULAR visits with your dear friend. God gave her to you for such a time as this.

    I won't pretend to be able to imagine your frustration right now. I know that someday I will. Until then, I can lift you in prayer.

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  17. Take one day at a time and sometimes ...one moment at a time. So glad you run to the Lord when you become overwhelmed. But good friends are the second best and I'm not surprised you have a friend since you were a child. I knew you were that kind of person.

    Blessings and love,
    Debbie

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  18. I have had the same kind of few days....and I have not done so well.....Loved reading your post

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  19. Grandchildren have a way of bringing a smile to the saddest of hearts, don't they. I stopped and prayed for you, asking God to give you peace in the midst of your storm.

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I am so glad that you would take the time to comment on my thoughts and feelings, it is such a blessing to me!