I have found my head all over the place these last two days since I heard my doctor say, "Debbie, we have had a positive result in your biopsy, you do have breast cancer." Now of course he had A LOT more to say as he went into detail of just what kind of cancer it is and how VERY fortunate I am that if I had to hear those words that it is indeed this kind of cancer and caught at the earliest possible stage. Obviously, this was NOT what I was hoping to hear, and it NOT what any woman ever wants to hear. However one thing I can tell you for sure I was NOT expecting to feel should I ever hear those words was "peaceful"....and yet, that is just how I feel. Now don't get me wrong. There has been some denial and tears and dread for what lies ahead as well. But by far the most overwhelming of my emotions is peaceful. There is of course absolutely no question in my mind that this is coming ONLY from my Lord. Anyone who knows me well, KNOWS that a calm and peaceful spirit does not exactly describe me. I have suffered from Anxiety my whole life. I came to terms a while ago with that fact and know that He ALWAYS sees me through regardless of where my physical and emotional feelings take me. So the fact that my very spirit is experiencing an unexplainable and overwhelming peace is truly miraculous, and can be coming only from Him. He has drawn soo many scriptures to my heart and mind through these last hours it is truly unbelievable.
Psalm 32:7 You are my hiding place; You shall preserve me from trouble; You shall surround me with songs of deliverance.
Psalm 50:15 Call upon Me in the day of trouble; I will deliver you, and you shall glorify Me."
Psalm 59:16 But I will sing of Your power; Yes, I will sing aloud of Your mercy in the morning; For You have been my defense And refuge in the day of my trouble.
Psalm 17:8 Keep me as the apple of Your eye; Hide me under the shadow of Your wings,
Psalm 63:7 Because You have been my help, Therefore in the shadow of Your wings I will rejoice.
Psalm 56:4 In God I will praise His word, In God I have put my trust; I will not fear. What can flesh do to me?
Isa 41:13 For I, the LORD your God, will hold your right hand, Saying to you, 'Fear not, I will help you.'
There are MANY MANY more, but I will stop here. There IS power in His Word. There IS hope for all who believe and He WILL see me through all this of this I have no doubt. I have many busy days ahead full of doctor appointments and decisions that must be made. I soo covet your prayers and appreciate so much all of the support I am receiving from soo many of you. I know there will probably be times where I will grow weary and overwhelmed and I will lean then not only on my God but on all of those He has blessed me with to do His work. I see God's hand already as He has begun to work out details that only He could. I will leave you with one last scripture that the Lord placed on my heart last January to claim as "my" scripture for 2010...
Jer 29:11 For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says the LORD, thoughts of peace and not of evil, to give you a future and a hope.
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May the Lord make His face shine upon you all....