Tuesday, June 8, 2010


Well it is Tues afternoon and I thought I might try and do a little blogging and catch you all up on what has been happening over here.

My thoughts and feelings have been all over the place. As I dwell back even a little bit as to what has happened in the last few weeks it seems incredible that so much has actually happened. A diagnose of breast cancer was not something I ever wanted to hear, and yet as like so many things in this life we just don't always get to pick what comes our way. But I have found that I discovered much in this brief journey so far. And right at the top of the list is that God is EVERYTHING He ever promised to be for me. He gave me His peace when I needed it most and lead me through each step of the way. This alone means soo much to me and brings a comfort in the knowledge that whatever what might happen, He will see me through. I also felt the love and support of my family in such tangible ways that it would be hard to describe to you. But knowing that they will be there no matter what this world dishes out, means more to me than you can know. The Lord has blessed me with soo much that I feel truly humbled.

We saw the surgeon today who though he still did not have the official pathology report in his hand, called the pathology department and got the report as he knew of course we would be wanting to hear while we were there. And the bottom line...the nodes were completely cancer free!! The left breast was completely cancer free, and the right breast had just the cancer they expected to find and nothing else; meaning of course that this should be the end of the treatment for me. I will see the oncologist in a couple more weeks who will give me the official release. She told me when I saw her two weeks ago that if that was what they found after surgery, that she would be officially done with me. So it looks like that this is it. I can't even really begin to say how I feel about this as there are soo many emotions involved. Relief of course that radiation and chemo won't be happening to me at this time, gratitude that everything happened the way it did, are the obvious emotions of course, but I have found that there is even a little guilt which is really weird, but I feel it nonetheless. Soo many others don't get the news I did, and why should "I" be sooo fortunate? I have been blessed with soo much already. But I also feel sorrow and pain and even a little anger that I have had to have a double mastectomy. Just soo many emotions. I imagine it might take me a little while to sort through them all. But I know again that the Lord will walk me through and love me with a love that can never be imagined.

I am feeling VERY tired and VERY weak, and they are not totally sure why. It might be I am a little anemic and so I am going to start on some iron. It might be that my blood pressure medications are a little strong for having just had surgery. But whatever it is I am hoping they figure it out quickly and I am past it soon and feeling myself. I appreciate so your continued prayers about all of this. The pain is not bad at all and I am already just taking an occasional Tylenol. Lots of progress is taking place on our new house and I am anxious to feel well enough to check it out. My Melly will be here until Thursday and how I have enjoyed having her here. What a comfort she has been to me. Oh, and one more thing. I know beyond a shadow of doubt, that I have the best husband any woman has ever been blessed with. Whatever would I do without him? I hope to get around to some visiting tomorrow. Surely I will be feeling stronger soon. I've missed you all....Debbie


  1. Praise God for the good pathology report. You are still in my prayers - hoping you regain your strength soon. You are missed!


  2. I have been praying for these emotions for you today...confirmation that I will continue to pray that way.
    Blessings on your journey, and thanks to an awesome God,

  3. so glad to hear the pathology report held no surprises! Wonderful! As far as feeling weak and tired??? According to what I was told, having major surgery will take a long time to recover from...it has not even been a week! It takes a month for the anesthetic to leave your body and my surgeon told me that I would be tired for quite awhile. He said you will walk a block and be exhausted...just takes time..... And that is just the physical end of things, not the emotional trauma.
    Lifting you up in prayer...


  4. Hi Deb,
    It just delights my soul to hear that wonderful report!! I can only imagine the rollercoaster of emotions you are experiencing right now...I'm so glad that you know the Lord and His peace, comfort, and strength. I was on BP meds prior to my appendectomy, and the Dr. told me I didn't have high blood pressure and to not take them. Apparently my BP dropped pretty low on the table as a result. SO...maybe that is your issue. Have they checked your B-12 by chance? Mine is a little low, and causes fatigue. I am using a b-12 spray supplement that has really helped.

    Well, dear friend, I continue to pray for all that concerns you, and am so thankful for the loving support you have received. You are a loving nurturing gal, and it is only right that you would be the recipient of all that you have given to others! :o)

    Love, hugs and prayers!

  5. Rejoicing with you over the pathology report, Debbie. I will continue to pray about theses specifics. you have really been in my thoughts and prayers, and I am so glad you have had Melly with you during this time. And what a dear hubby you have too. May you continue to rest and get your strength back.

  6. I can't even begin to imagine the emotional rollercoaster that this must be for you Debbie. So happy for you that the pathology report came back good. I will pray for your strength. I hope you are feeling better very soon!!!

  7. It definitely has been alot in these last weeks - and emotions all over the place..but just as I was reading on a blog a minute ago - what a blessing to have a Heavenly father who is FAITHFUL. Whatever is included in our life journey...and no matter the emotion our heart may feel, He knows our need and supplies - always walking with us. This is so evident in your story and such an encouragment.

    Hopefully, you can get some strength back quickly. Praying that healing is still going well...hope you enjoy these next couple days with Mel. I'm sure she is treating you like a queen:)

    Thanks for the update - and really looking forward to seeing and hearing more about the house. Goodness, so much going on all at one time.:)

    Take care, my friend. Glad to hear your update:)

  8. Debbie, I can only imagine the roller coaster you've been on. Like you said though, the Lord will see you through just how He has during this entire process. I'll be praying for you still for your strength and for you emotionally. I know it's got to be tough. I say when you are feeling better we should all do lunch, it'd be great to see you, I just want to give you a big fat hug!

  9. Hi Debbie ,
    I am glad the news is good . You are in my thoughts & prayers .
    Love in Christ,

  10. Been thinking and praying for you this past week. Glad to hear the good news. All your emotions are perfectly normal. The three words I can leave with you are, "GOD IS GOOD." Just concentrate on that when you're having a bad moment. Glad your daughter was able to be with you, I know how close you are to her!!

  11. Hey Debbie! I'm rejoicing with you over the clear path report and praying for supernatural peace and strength as you recover, sister!

    I've been praying for you and think of you often!

    He is Faithful!

    Luv, Hugs and Sweet Blessings!

  12. that is just the physical end of things, not the emotional trauma.
    Lifting you up in prayer...
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  13. Blessings Debbie,

    I'm so thankful after looking through your many older posts for when you went through this ALL, I fell on this one with a good pathology report! Praise God! I realize that this does not make all well but in every hard part of our life we all need to find something to rejoice in, so I chose this one to leave a word and let you know you are in my prayers along with the others encountered facing this battle in life. It is so good to see that you have many sisters and friends that surround you and a wonderful family!!!

    By the way, I totally LOVE this autumn look!!! So warm and inviting for this season like you!

    Since this was back in June, I pray that you have been strengthened and
    continue to be an honest encouragement to others facing this. Precious family!!!

    God be with you!


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