Well it is Thursday and my Melly has gone. What a week it has been. I feel like so many of my posts recently have been full of "deep" emotions and "deep" thoughts, and this one I am afraid will be no different. I guess that is just where this season in my life has me, and there is just no choice but to wade through to the other side. I am looking forward to the moment (that I KNOW is coming) when I can look back and remember how the Lord saw me through and His mercy and grace were abundant and plentiful.
Melody sat in the rocker in our room last night as I laid in bed, and the two of us talked and cried as we allowed ourselves the time to reflect back on not just this latest storm we have been through, but on all our years in this house, as it was to be the last time she would ever go to sleep under this roof. Together we remembered all the different ways we "decorated" her room over the years as it saw her through the various stages in her life. For the first 6 years her room was done in Precious Moments and I can see it all like it was yesterday; the wallpaper with the darling little "dolls" on it, the light yellow walls, and the fluffy white eyelet curtains blowing in the breeze. The rocker where I sat and nursed her, in NO HURRY to have this final baby grow up. As her elementary school years began, the theme of her room changed to sunflowers and what a perfect way to describe her during that time. She was such a happy, busy girl. From her little desk that was always neatly arranged with her books and drawing pencils, to the book shelf she began to fill with all her favorite books and collectibles. We changed it again when she reached age 11 and moved into her "pre-teen" feel. Now the colors were vivid blue and purple and we bought her a double bed as spending the night with her girlfriends became so important. Long games of "Barbie" with Jess, and the constant sound of giggling and whispering from happy girls sharing the secrets of life became the routine. Her room changed again as she moved through her high school years and the smell of candles and the sound of music often drifted through the door. It seemed as if her girlfriends were always there and the drama of life at this stage won't be forgotten soon I am quite certain. Her college years changed her room for the final time when we bought her beautiful "grown up" furniture complete with a queen sized bed and a GORGEOUS lavender and green comforter. Her room so reflected the woman she had become at that point; simple and yet somewhat elegant. I can so clearly see it all in my mind, but I wish I'd taken pictures of all the various different stages before we changed them. So many memories flooded our hearts when we thought back to all the holidays at this house, the birthdays, the moments of triumph and unfornately of sorrow. It has just held all the pages of the history of our life for soo long. We decided that even though it seems as if it is all coming to an end now, it really came to an end on her wedding day 2 years ago this last Tues. Her life has moved into the season of life she is so enjoying with her new husband, and ours is moving into yet another season of ours. I am excited for sure to get into the new house, and begin this time in my life, and yet such a major change for us all. When she comes again in mid July for Jessie's bridal shower, we should be all moved and settling in. We will have a whole new set of memories just waiting to be made. I am starting to feel a tiny bit better. Still a lot weaker than I would like, more emotional for sure and yet like I always tell my kids, "moving along". There is soo much that still needs to be done, and yet I am grateful that soo much has gotten done at the new house this last week. I am hoping to feeling up to going over to see for myself this week-end. This verse in Ecclesiastes keeps running over and over in my mind....it is just so true.
Ecclesiastes 3:1 To everything there is a season, A time for every purpose under heaven.
God will work out all of the details for everything that has happened and will happen in my life I am quite certain. He is faithful and His timing is perfect.
Mel with her roses that her hubby had delivered on their second wedding Anniversary June 8th.