What a LONG LONG few days it has been. I have great news to report tonight. And the most amazing thing of all is had I written this post last night it would have been very different indeed.
My mother is doing sooo much better. How grateful I am for all of you who have prayed for her. She was soo ill yesterday she was unable to get out of her bed at all. She spent the day dry heaving and on Morphine for her skull cracking headache. Her blood pressure was still too high. She was confused and unable to express a lot of which she was trying to say. It was hard to watch and yet I couldn't seem to bring myself from her bedside. My 3 sisters and I have gathered around and done all we could to help make her comfortable and to tend to not only her needs around the clock, but to those of my poor step dad as well. He has been soo overwhelmed and down. He is 85 years old, diabetic, and still soo in love with her. Their relationship has always been one to envy. How close they are. And yet soo many of my thoughts have been selfish as I could only see how this would affect me. However would I bear the loss of my mother as I have known her. I talk to my mom AT LENGTH every day; sometimes for a good hour or more. We get together and go to dinner with them FREQUENTLY and have an ongoing card game we play almost weekly. She is my biggest cheer leader and someone I have counted on my entire life. How I love her. To watch her suffer in such a way has almost been unbearable. She has always been soo healthy. She looks soo young for her age, I think we all forget that she is 78 years old. (though she is still insisting she is 88, haha)....But today from the moment I walked into her room I could see that everything had changed. She was sitting up in bed eating her breakfast and talked and laughed as if not much had ever happened. She walked the hall without even a walker, steady and sure on her feet. Her blood pressure has dropped right where they want it to be. Her nausea was gone, and her headache with it. She is still having a little trouble reading, though that is beginning to return as well. She even recognized MOST of the stack of playing cards she was shown. She will be transported tomorrow to a re-hab hospital to get the therapy she needs to make a full recovery. They don't think she will be there for more than a week. There is even a small chance she might make it to the wedding on Sun. I can't begin to express the gratitude I feel. God is soo good, and His healing touch has been upon her for sure. This whole experience has made me remember all too well how fleeting life really is. Here today and gone tomorrow. Not a one of us knows what tomorrow holds.
James 4:14 whereas you do not know what will happen tomorrow. For what is your life? It is but a vapor that appears for a little time and then vanishes away.
We need to appreciate what we have and love everyone as much as we can. Life is too short to be spent any other way. We need to live our lives for Him while we have the breath to do so, and be willing to make a difference where we can. There is still a long, hard road ahead for my mom. She will have lots of support and encouragement from a family and friends who are there for her, and the strength of a God who will walk the road with her. I will so appreciate any prayers that you might offer for her. Especially that she might be well enough to attend the wedding, if only for a little while. And if not, that she will not be too depressed if she is to miss it. She has been soo excited about it. I have not been able to keep up with everyone these last few days, and I am afraid the next few might be just as bad. I have brought my lap top to the hospital with me and have stolen a few visits while my mama napped. I came home early tonight as I am soo tired and plan on falling into bed right after this. And another good piece of news tonight? My Melly will be here tomorrow for 6 whole days....YAY....Yes, God is soo good.