AN UPDATE AND A QUESTION

I have a few minutes so I thought I would write just a quick post. Mel arrived last night around 5:30 looking mighty pale…I felt soo bad for her as I guess the flight from Vegas (they ALWAYS have a layover in Vegas) was REALLY bumpy and she was feeling sooo queasy by the time the plane landed she had to get up and rush to the restroom. The flight attendant was concerned, but Mel assured her she was OK, just pregnant. We picked her up out front and she quickly got into the car as my hubby got her suitcase into the trunk. We hadn’t left the airport for 5 minutes when she told her daddy to pull over quickly. We did manage to pull over before she got sick, but just barely. POOR Mel…though I felt bad for the people whose house we were in front of too…But what are you going to do? Haha…After that, she was feeling much better and we headed out to eat believe it or not. That’s what nice sometimes about morning sickness, it’s gone as quickly as it comes. After dinner we headed home to watch American Idol. We enjoyed watching the show with her. Today we headed down to Newport Beach to have lunch with Jessie before getting her done. She had not had it done since September, so she was in pretty bad shape, haha…Jessie got her the cutest little maternity outfit (not that she is even close to needing it yet) and a book about mom’s. Soo sweet and just soo Jessie. Her hair looking beautiful again, feeling wonderful, she has headed out tonight to have dinner with another close friend of hers. I am just enjoying being with her. The average person would NEVER know she is pregnant, but this mama can tell. A teeny, tiny baby bump is definitely there. She has only gained a pound, but I am sure that is all about to change as she heads into her second trimester. I will definitely get a pic of her bump before she goes I am sure.


I am not sure if I should write about this…in fact, I am pretty sure I shouldn’t. But it has really kind of been heavy on my heart. And it is such a silly thing in soo many ways. But let me just ask some of you. How much do you consider some of the women you have met in the blogging world to be your friends?? I guess for me I really have without realizing that I had. And the truth of the matter is I have found myself “attached” in ways. Do you know what I mean? I have followed along on the lives of soo many women, as I am sure many of you have done as well. I can’t tell you how much they have blessed me. The encouragement I have felt, the things I have learned from the wisdom of you several of you, the humor, the simple joys of life shared with “kindred spirits”… just attached. I find myself when I am on here quickly scanning the side of my blog to see if any of the regulars I read have posted something new. If they have I am on it in a flash just so I don’t miss a thing. I think I comment pretty much wherever I read not because I feel it is necessary by any means, but because I guess I just always have something to say, haha. And let’s face it, it can be done pretty quickly, usually anyway. I do e-mail quite a bit with some of you as well. My point in all of this is when someone that I have been reading and exchanging comments with for MONTHS suddenly stops; it REALLY makes me wonder why. Now don’t get me wrong. I know people get busy, computer time is limited for many, and NO ONE should ever feel like they have to read, comment, or even blog at all. I too sometimes get busy (though I probably have more time than most) and don’t get around like I’d like. That’s not what I am talking about. And I am not talking about someone who is taking a break from blogging or computer time in general. I am talking about someone who has commented on everything you have posted for months and months and suddenly just stops. They are still commenting on several of the other blogs we all read, (so you KNOW that are still blogging) and yet they have stopped commenting me. It bothers me. It is like I have lost a friend and I am not sure why. There are MANY blogs where I comment on everything they post and I just get a very occasional comment from them. I am not talking about them either. I read and comment where my interest takes me as we all do I am sure, and that is totally fine of course. I am talking about someone who was one of your VERY REGULAR readers, commenter’s, and friends (in my opinion) who just suddenly and unexplainably has dropped you. I have found that it has happened a few times to me now. Maybe I am alone in this. Maybe the rest of you have never lost anyone. Am I the only one who is bothered by this? I want to ask them in the worst way if I have said something in one of my posts that has hurt them, or angered them, or bothered them in some way, because I just couldn’t bear it if I have. Maybe it is nothing more than what I write no longer interests them and there is only so much time to blog and I am out, haha…Maybe my posts are too long and drawn out…my kids have all at what point or another told me they were. I have also asked myself what real difference it makes, as I do not write this blog to get comments. I honestly don’t. I write because I love to write, and because I want it to be a journal of my life in a sense for my kids and grandkids. It bothers me I guess because like I said I feel like I have lost some wonderful people along the way without really knowing why and wondering if I am doing something. OK, there it is….pretty silly I know. I have been praying about what the Lord might have me do with this whole thing recently. I have considered maybe just writing a private blog just for my kids and grandkids and not being involved in the blogging world except to read other’s posts. I have even considered just getting out of it altogether. And then I go back to maybe I should go continue on and not worry about who reads, who comments, who stops, who doesn’t, or WHY…But that’s what brings me back to the question…Are your blog friends real to you?? And if they are, as they are and have been to me, then how can this not bother me?? Just wondering