I have had a weird week. I hesitate as always to write of negative things here on my blogpost as who likes to read about that, but if we are being honest life is just hard sometimes and there is just no getting around it really. I have told myself that this blog and the eventual books that I print from them, are suppose to be a journal of my life, of my thoughts, dreams, hopes and feelings etc. to be for my children and grandchildren some day should they be so interested. And yet, if I never admit to having hard days, struggles with issues that haunt me, or emotions that get out of control, are they seeing or hearing the REAL Debbie? lol Or do they even need to KNOW the real Debbie? Bottom line, I am having some real issues with my blood pressure. I have suffered from high blood pressure for years. I have taken medication for it for years. I also have white coat syndrome. Which makes it difficult for me to get an accurate reading at the doctors office as I am always somewhat hysterical just at the sight of the cuff. However I have a really good monitor here at home and I periodically check it (though my first reading here is ALWAYS a little high too) and it has been in REALLY good control for quite a while now. I have to go to the docs office every 4 months and have it checked as well, and while it is usually a little high there, it hasn't been bad for a good long while. Well it is out of control again....kind of bad. I hate it. I hate dealing with it. I hate the anxiety is produces which of course only complicates the issue. I don't want to think about it. They are adding on another medication and playing around with it some which of course has me feeling a little weird and running to my blood pressure cuff too much. I am praying about this all of course and it has me depending on my God to control my emotions and fears and asking for healing of course. Sooo, there you have it. A week of weird new meds, doctors visits and blood pressure cuffs dangling around. Soo not what I feel like. But I DO trust my God. I KNOW it is all in His capable hands. And in the meantime I will do my best to "move along" as I tell my kids. Try not to let this control my thoughts too much therefore producing more anxiety. But I am not going to lie, it isn't easy.
I have done some sewing though as it does usually relax me. I embroidered a tee shirt for my grandson Cody, and made him a pair of PJ's as well. I have many things that need to be sewn yet, so it is a good thing I find it relaxing, haha.
|SUCH CUTE CAR FABRIC....NOTICE THE LABEL I FOUND TO PUT ON IT?|
|CUTE...HOPE IT IS NOT TOO BIG!|
We are to have a party tomorrow for little Cody, and church and the super bowl at my son's on Sun. So it is looking like a good week-end. Hope you all have a good one too!