Friday, January 31, 2014

A WEIRD WEEK

Well here we are to Friday morning again already.  The time as always is flying by.  It is actually been a little overcast for a couple of days now, and we have even had a tiny bit of rain!  Soo exciting!  Southern California has had a WARM, WARM January, and is in desperate need of some rain, so I am pleased to see this change.  Now if it would only last for a few days at least.

I have had a weird week.  I hesitate as always to write of negative things here on my blogpost as who likes to read about that, but if we are being honest life is just hard sometimes and there is just no getting around it really.  I have told myself that this blog and the eventual books that I print from them, are suppose to be a journal of my life, of my thoughts, dreams, hopes and feelings etc. to be for my children and grandchildren some day should they be so interested.  And yet, if I never admit to having hard days, struggles with issues that haunt me, or emotions that get out of control, are they seeing or hearing the REAL Debbie?  lol Or do they even need to KNOW the real Debbie?   Bottom line, I am having some real issues with my blood pressure.  I have suffered from high blood pressure for years.  I have taken medication for it for years.  I also have white coat syndrome. Which makes it difficult for me to get an accurate reading at the doctors office as I am always somewhat hysterical just at the sight of the cuff.  However I have a really good monitor here at home and I periodically check it (though my first reading here is ALWAYS a little high too) and it has been in REALLY good control for quite a while now.  I have to go to the docs office every 4 months and have it checked as well, and while it is usually a little high there, it hasn't been bad for a good long while. Well it is out of control again....kind of bad.  I hate it.  I hate dealing with it.  I hate the anxiety is produces which of course only complicates the issue.  I don't want to think about it.  They are adding on another medication and playing around with it some which of course has me feeling a little weird and running to my blood pressure cuff too much.  I am praying about this all of course and it has me depending on my God to control my emotions and fears and asking for healing of course.  Sooo, there you have it.  A week of weird new meds, doctors visits and blood pressure cuffs dangling around.  Soo not what I feel like.  But I DO trust my God.  I KNOW it is all in His capable hands.  And in the meantime I will do my best to "move along" as I tell my kids.  Try not to let this control my thoughts too much therefore producing more anxiety.  But I am not going to lie, it isn't easy.

I have done some sewing though as it does usually relax me.  I embroidered a tee shirt for my grandson Cody, and made him a pair of PJ's as well.  I have many things that need to be sewn yet, so it is a good thing I find it relaxing, haha.

SUCH CUTE CAR FABRIC....NOTICE THE LABEL I FOUND TO PUT ON IT?

CUTE...HOPE IT IS NOT TOO BIG!


We are to have a party tomorrow for little Cody, and church and the super bowl at my son's on Sun.  So it is looking like a good week-end.  Hope you all have a good one too!

Blessings, Debbie



8 comments:

  1. Have a great weekend. I hope your blood pressure goes down.
    I love all of your projects.
    Have a lovely weekend.

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  2. Debbie,
    I started on blood pressure meds a year or so ago. I just take a low dose, and now it is good, but I know if I shed this 30 pounds or so, I wouldn't need it at all. My son inlaw feels I should take it regardless, being a sort of excitable person by nature, that it helps to keep things calm.
    I so loved making that blanket, that I went yesterday and bought more flannel for two more upcoming babies in our lives. And when I was making it, I thought how the possibilities are endless. That quilting one side, as you did, would be great, or even making a much larger square for a table topper, or whatever. Endless possibilities. Awesome pattern! I love it! AND...Joann's is having a two day sale on flannels...half off, only online though. They don't have all of the selection that the store does, but some good buys. I think I may buy some neutrals to have on hand for either boy or girl blankets.
    The t shirt for Cody is darling! And the pjs are so cute too!!!
    Breathe deep, and stay calm!!!
    Thinking of you.
    xo Kris

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  3. Debbie
    I'm so sorry to hear of your problem with high blood pressure, but glad you are sharing this so we can join in praying for you! I'm sure it is scary! My MIL has it on occasion and as you say, it causes additional worry. I am trusting God with you to get this regulated friend..
    And, as always, your sewing is so darn cute. It's obvious how much you enjoy it!
    Have a fun weekend, Debbie.

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  4. Personally, I'm of the opinion that if we cannot be honest on our blogs, where can we? And as you said, this is your journal to leave behind ... if you don't share the difficulties and troubles that you (like everyone else) face, you are missing a valuable opportunity to show them how you rely on our Lord for help and support through those difficult times.

    While garment sewing would NOT be relaxing for me, I know what you mean ... as hand quilting is my therapy. It really does relax me.

    We've got a grand birthday coming up in a couple of weeks ... he will be 12! How is that even possible???? I'm not nearly old enough to be a Nana to a 12-year-old!?!?!?! ha!

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  5. Blood pressure can be a real pain in the rear. I've been on medicine for several years now. It's finally regulated pretty well. My hubby fights it too and also has white coat syndrome.
    Hoping you'll get it under control. And with God, I know you will.

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  6. This reminds me of my sister, Debbie. Her BP is a little on the high side, so she freaks out when she sits in the DR.office, and it goes up even more. Then she got her own cuff and was taking it many times every day, and it fluctuated a lot. Now she just takes it once a day and she is much happier! :) I pray yours stays down. Just keep sewing for those adorable kids, that's good therapy. :)

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  7. Oh I can so empathize. I also have white coat syndrome and I also find that cuff to be extraordinarily painful. I have a rather high threshold of pain ordinarily. Praying that this all gets resolved for you. And if you can't say what you'd like in your own blog, then where?

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  8. {{Hugs}} to you, Debbie. I am sorry you've had a rough week. I will pray that the Lord grants wisdom and peace as you deal with your high blood pressure.

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I am so glad that you would take the time to comment on my thoughts and feelings, it is such a blessing to me!