Around a year or so after her stroke (2 years ago this Sept.) she has been having small seizures. Her original stroke was a bleeding stroke and caused trouble with her speech, reading, and numbers. Her physical capabilities were not affected at all. The seizures are just small misfires so to speak around the damaged area, and she begins to talk briefly in gibberish. It usually frustrates her and causes great anxiety, but the worse of it is over in 15 minutes or so and then about an hour after that she is completely back to normal. They must give her medication for this, and of course the medication causes various different side affects. Fatigue, dry mouth and weakness in her legs to name a few. She doesn't have them often, but of course it would better if she didn't have them at all. Every once in a while they have increased the medication when the seizures got too close together. She is also on blood pressure medication, and has recently developed diabetes 2. This is the first time she has fallen during a seizure though, which of course puts a whole new spin on them. They have increased the medication yet again. I am afraid the weakness this causes in her legs might get to be too much and she won't be able to get around at all even with a walker. Plus the pain meds they are giving her for her ankle are making her HORRIBLY sleepy. I guess they are going to try and change that by tomorrow. Meanwhile she is somewhat of a zombie. Sooo drowsy and dozy she can barely talk....soo weak she shakes whiles trying to hold herself up, and hardly able to take more than a couple of steps even with the walker and assistance. Sooo, I have no idea how long this is going to take to heal. What her capabilities will be even after she is healed and on and on. If she will be needing more out patient re-hab even after that. Plus, her docs and hospitals etc., are STILL in Newport and Huntington Beach which are a LONG, TRAFFIC RIDDLED mess of a drive for me. I really wanted mom to change her docs close to me when she moved in here in the event of something like this happening so I could help her with it all much more easily, but mom was not ready to "let go" of her doctor, and my sisters all felt we should wait to
Proverbs 3:5-6 Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge Him, and He shall direct your paths.
I have spent the last two days at the hospital, and will go tomorrow until one of my sisters arrives in the afternoon. A LONG week. I was thinking back to last week (as I sat in traffic driving home today) to the fun mom and I had on our shopping trips. How I pray she is back to her old self soon. I feel soo bad for her. How bewildered and overwhelmed she must be. She laid in her bed yesterday looking soo small, and said with her lips trembling while wringing her little hands, "If I could just talk to Joe (her recently lost husband) for a few minutes." It broke my heart. I want to fix it all for her soo badly.
Guess that's it for now. Sorry this was such a depressing post, but sometimes life is just plain old hard. But again, I can honestly say that through it all I still feel the joy of my God and know His peace. The Lord holds my very life in His Hands and He will NEVER leave us or forsake us. We have been engraved in the palms of His Hands.
Romans 8:38-39 For I am persuaded that neither death nor life, nor angles nor principalities nor powers, nor things present nor things to come, nor height nor depth, nor any other created thing, shall be able to separate us from the love of God which is in Christ Jesus our Lord.
Isaiah 49:16 See, I have inscribed you on the palms of My hands....